One day after my last paper....feeling real great but am anxious.I guess wat CH told me earlier about his fear of this transition is now overwhelming me.I thought his fear was unfounded and how wrong i was.

Today, i can take my time to gaze into the bright blue sky in the late morning and need not worry about the passing of time.I get to watch any amount of movies i want and surprisingly, i find myself with no time to watch the apprentice and some other great movies tt i have stored in my comp.Maybe, i think they can wait for awhile.

What's bothering my mind now is the fear of losing knowledge....as in i fear tt once i step into the working world i will be totally out of the study world.I am worried and scared.Ppl might just ask me to continue studying but more than half of me dunwan to do tt.I am also worried the best gift tt God has given me will slowly deteriorate...i hav appreciated His gift for me , one tt i hav tried to use it to the max the past one year.I know tt coz of tt gift, i need not work twice as hard as other ppl and yet be able to score real well.But , along wif tt gift, i hated myself too coz i tend to lose temper on ppl i think is abit too "slow".
Nevertheless, i try to use my gift to the max by working it out every now and then even while i am on long hols.

Now, reflecting back on wat my sis asked me... why i did not try hard to get first class.That's the question which i hav asked myself.I had traded it with my hall life for tt and seriously, i never did aim to get tt class since first yr.
However, after end of 2nd yr, i realised tt i need to focus back on my studies... and i traded it firstly, with the best sport i luv.Yeah, the sport tt i dunnit to put much effort in it and yet, i can do it brilliantly.i guess it runs in my family.
But the true reason i gave up was becoz i felt tt i couldn't run for fun... it became such a tedious sport for me.I started to dread the trainings during my second yr.It weren't supposed to be like tt.... i had alwiz luv to run, and luv the trainings.....but when it became so awful, i decided to quit. I still remembered the day i told Felix tt i didn't wan to run.... it took me 2 days to actually gather my guts and face him.
That's how i quited....but i still luv to run, i will alwiz sneak out at 10 pm to run....joyce, who was my neighbour then, will freak out worrying bout my safety.Looking back, i had had enough achievements in my running journey.What is most regrettable is that i didn't win any trophies in varsity, which i did during jc , high school and primary school.
I guess, i am not half as good as my dad's genes too..... He still ran while he worked and yeah, he had winning trophies for tt too.

Nonetheless, i enjoyed my time back in hall.I made lotsa frens and yeah, maybe equally same amount of foes.
That's when i decided to break out of hall life and venture into varsity's activities....this realli helped me a great deal. It not only helped me widen my scope of frens but also , improved my resume=)
I had a hard time trying to stay back during my final year in campus .... all coz of the screwed up point system and SARS. But somehow, i was blessed a place to stay in KFH which i would never have dreamt of.Okies, i did vouch to stay at KFH for one year during my first year.Amazingly, time flies and all my 4 yrs spent here is going to vanish in a blink of an eye.

That's why i am scared.... all this have to go soon.Will i be able to see the rest of the guys after we part? Will we keep in contact? It's gonna be hard.... even me and CL are having a hard time wif it since CL is working now.It's not easy to keep in contact but somehow, coz of the time we spent together though short but fruitful bound us together.
However, there will be new frens!!!!! yippee!!!! hehe, i will get to know new frens and maybe get a bf ???? feeling great now!!!!!
Minghoe told me to reserve the place of emcee for him during my marriage....hmmm, sthg is fishy here, but heh, i am honored that he requested for it.I guess, he is gonna talk bout how crappy i am and the time when he had to rush over to uni just to see me puke....and bring me to see the doctor.He was really a great friend and still is now=)

That's all for my reflecting journey now, shall continue when i am bored.

Hmmm, will God ever bind me and ny together? hehe, just a thought=)